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My frustration is pretty high today. I am in my 30's and currently unemployed. I worked for Cubicle Hell, Inc. for almost 8 years and was laid off in April. That was a tough day. I worked my ass off for that company every single day and I got laid off but some one else who can barely do that job got to keep hers. I was very angry but at the same time I wondered if it wasn't a blessing in disguise. I really did not like my job. It was just a paycheck to me as was the case for every one else in my dept. We were all unhappy with the actual job we were doing. This was my way out.

I quickly made the decision to go back to school to study medical billing & coding. I signed up for courses just a few days after I got laid off. A few weeks later I was sitting in my 1st class among people in the same boat as me (laid off) and kids just out of high school. The rowdy immature high school students were tough to be around. I was there to actually learn something so I could get a job to support myself. These kids couldn't care less.

I made it through the program with a 4.0 average and am now job hunting like crazy. My school has always said their Career Services dept will help us find a job. So far they haven't done much. I feel like I'm getting the brush off some times. I've emailed my resume to the proper person in Career Services 3 times & never received a response. I had to keep emailing & calling in order to talk to her.

I finally reached her last week only to be told she couldn't see me for another week because her schedule was full. So today was my meeting with her and honestly I just wanted to scream at her and walk out. She asks me why I'm there even though I told her why in my emails and phone calls. She tells me she doesn't have any billing positions that she knows of and that she's sorry, she meant to call me to tell me that. So basically I went down there for nothing.

Then she asked me what she told me about my resume. I told her she never told me anything about my resume. So she finds my email & opens my resume & tells me she wants to change some things which means she never once looked at it before.

Instead of her saving my resume as a new document and just tweaking what she wanted she opened a blank document and started retyping my resume from scratch. She was copying what I already had so I saw no point in what she was doing. She only changed a few things yet I had to sit there for an hour while she slowly re-typed everything. Then she tells me to come back in a week. Wow. Thanks.

My unemployment is up in 2 months and if I don't find a job soon I'll have to start taking from my 401k which I don't really want to do but may not have a choice. I can't help thinking about what will happen if I still can't find a job and go through my 401k. So many of my friends are in my position. Things are so tough out there and it's hard to stay positive but I keep plugging away, applying to every single job I can, posting my resume on job sites and making phone calls.

Will eating brownies and watching "Lost" help my frustration? Yes, as a matter of fact it will!